Good Bye HVAC..

New semester finally come, with the new spirit I enter my first elective class, subject about air-cond. Unfortunately, what I expect from that class is totally different. The chapter, the topic is out of my thinking. But, ok.. it still fine for me..

Then the lecturer make the statement, the subject is realy tough.. Suddenly feel scared, but still ok. We must buy our own book, still fine. There is no copy of lecture note, means student must write their note themselves, still fine. Must buy triangular set and long ruler, also still fine.

After that, discuss about tutorial class. At first lecturer decide that we can choose our group. But suddenly our class leader give the idea to arrange group by follow matrix number. Sound brilliant rite? But for me this is really not fine. Why? Let see the situation exactly:

" The tutorial class will be held on Tuesday and Friday. As I know, 100% student will avoid to have a class on Friday. Only few malay students take that class, about 13 and less. From my experience, most malay peoples which is male has a name start with M while female mostly start with N or S. The other races usually has name start between A and E. Lecturer assume that number of students take that class is 40. So tutorial group will be 4 and 10 persons in each group. 2 in Tuesday and 2 in Friday. Matrix number is refer to the first aphabet of our name, means that almost malay student will get matrix number between 25 - 40. Conclusion, malay students will get tutorial class on Friday"

But.. still cant do anything about it. Other races totally agree with it. Lecturer himself also agree with it, coz that idea is easy and simple to do. Plus, lecturer also come out with the statement to strength that idea. So, the only thing left is.. good bye HVAC..

It Is Okay For Me

Even I dont know exactly the reason, but..

It is okay for me if you want to keep ignoring me as long as you really feel comfortable with it. But one thing, please dont do that to the other friends coz Im sure they all really care for you. And if you start ignoring them too, they will hurt so much.

It is okay for me if you want to running away from me, as long as you happy doing it. Just run and continue run as far you can go. But, dont forget to find me whenever you need friend coz I will always there whenever you need me.

It is okay for me if you want to avoiding me for long time, as long as you remember me. You say that you need time rite? I dont know why you need that thing. What can I say, just take a lot of time that you need. Maybe with that, you will be fine.

And last but not least...

It is okay for me if you want to do anything that you think rite. But, please be sure about it first. We have known each other for a long time. It is okay for you ignore, run and avoid me just because something that you not sure? If it is, it is okay for me as long you feel okay with it too..

Even I dont know exactly the reason.

Hope They Are Just Fine..

All of them are the person I always text before. But, I think there is long time no hear about their story. Just dont want disturbing them. But hope that all of them are in good condition.. Lets meet them..

A - Rite now the only thing that I get from A is goodnite wish. Just that.. No more joking, no more story to share. I dont understand actually, why A keep ignoring me? And run away from me. Have no idea at all. But if A really happy doing all that, it is okay for me then. I just can accept it..

D - D said that I am D bestfriend (it is valid until now?) I think there is long time dont text D. Sorry, but to be honest I dont know how to start text D. Coz before this I always text D so a lot of topics has been discuss so for now I have no idea. Haha. But it is not mean that I forget D. Always remember D. Hee..

F - To make it clearly, F is the person that responsible for the existence of this blog. And for me, F is my mentor in this blog things. Haha.. I remember one things. Last time I text F, I ask one question but until now F still not answer it. So please answer that question ok? Coz I really curious to know.. Haha

Z - My crazy friend, really crazy but for me, Z is a friend that is really friend. In other words, true friend. But the fact is F still crazy. But Z seem quite shy in front of me (shy shy cat maybe)Last time I text Z is before Z go vacation. So where is my souvenier? Dont forget it, and please hurry okay!! Just joking..

So lastly, hope they are just fine..

Princess

Today at home. As usual dont know what to do. You know Im at S*** R**** (means no mall, no fast food restaurant) that I can go. So, I decide to do something that a long time I didnt do. Guess what? Reading novel (You all can start laughing now). Im reading novel? Haha.. Me myself didnt believe it, but wateva. Sometimea I love doing it. So I search at the cupboard and suddenly see it. My one and only novel I buy by myself (other novels, credit to my sister).

Princess, that is the title for the novel that I choose to read. Written by Bikash Nur Idris. Have you ever heard or read it? For me, it really attract me coz it has a nice love story inside it (90% novel will tell about love, so just accept it). I dont want to tell about the whole story, so just find and read it by yourself (Can borrow me if you want) Haha.

Enough that I say, the love story inside it is very sweet and nice. Annoying and player guy meet talkative gurl, that kind of story really can attract me to read it until last pages. There have a lot of funny and touching scene. But I dont like the ending coz it has a very sad ending. Maybe thats why it is unique. Different than the other novels that always ending like this "And they live happily ever after".

How fast I can finish read that 255 pages just about an hour (If I can do the same with reference book, I can be genius) Haha.. Finish reading, I think and questioning myself, That kind of love, is that really exist in this real world? If it is, am I deserve to get it? Maybe not coz Im not good enough to get that kind of love. Haha.. How far Im thinking.. Em.. But for now, congratz to Bikash Nur Idris that successfully attract me to read that novel, Princess.

Just A Few Days

Just a few days, my new semester will start. Times run very quickly. Suddenly feel that I have not enough rest yet. In a few days, I will be student again. Final year, means that I cannot play anymore. And of coz lots more work, assignment to come. Dont forget thesis. Wahh.. Think about it suddenly make me tension, scared.. Hahaha. Just a few days..

The Story Of E L F

E - Im sure all people outside there will avoid to get E. Why? because get it will cause harmful in their life. And also will cause more troubles. Me myself dont want E in my life. But I must agree with something. Sometimes, when E become the F, It will be the true F than the existence F, and if E become L, Im sure it will be eternal.

L - I dont know too much about L, and still learn about it. But one thing for sure, people always want to find it. They say L will bring happiness. And can make our life complete? Is that true? Maybe sometimes. But losing L will make people losing F. The worse is sometimes, people that losing L will turn the L become the E.

F - For me, F is important in our life. So that why there has a quote says that we can find thousand F but avoid to have E. Totally agree with it. F that become the L has their own pros and cons. Maybe there have happiness and sadness. But the F that turn into E is very dangerous than the E itself. Why? coz they know the weakness of each others.

So why I type all these? Nothing. Just want to share something that running in my mind..

Silent

Suddenly,it comes again.. With a ring appear from my phone.. and I ignore it. Then the first message that say suddenly she remember me (Suddenly? yeah rite). Few minutes later the second message comes, contain the chorus from song Di Penghujung Rindu by Jamal Abdillah. Seem touching.. but I've done with it. Sorry but the only thing I can do is remain silent..

Can I Fall In Love?

I am a person who experience love only just once. And after that thing ends. I dont feel anything.. Regret.. Sad.. Hurt.. I dont actually feel all that. The only thing I feel is guilty bcoz I think I had hurt someone. Can I fall in love?

I am a person who always choose friendship more than love if I have been decide to choose.. And Im sure some of my bestfriends know that I already sacrifice love 3 times since Im know what love is. Can I fall in love?

I am a person who think that love is not means to have it. In love, it is better to give more than take. For me, It is ok if someone that I like live happily even it is not with me, since we always hope the best for someone we love rite? Can I fall in love?

I am a person who is rite now dont want to take seriously about love. It is not because I scared to be hurt. I dont care if either 10, 10, 100 or 1000 peoples hurt me but to hurt someone again is what I dont want to. Can I fall in love?

So anyone? Have you decide it? Can I fall in love?

Really Dont Understand

Really dont understand.

Why? Why you just send the same message everyday and after that remain silent? Why you not reply any message after that? Why you act like that? Why?

When? When you start to be like this? When you start to become more sensitive? When this all started? When?

What? What have I done to you actually? What is the wrong thing I done to you? What should I do to fix it? What?

Really dont understand.

Unexpected

Remember when I say we can only plan? It happen again today. Suddenly my family want to go here and decide to stay for a day. So rite now Im still here.. in A*****. Really unexpected. If I know these thing will happen earlier, maybe I can plan with my frens to go out anywhere once again. But what can I say. Im just human. Dont expected it will happen. So rite now the only thing I can do is stay in the house and update my "house" huh..

We Can Only Plan..

Human.. can only plan to do something or decide something, but GOD is the only one that can make it come true or not. It always happen like that rite? Plan something and lastly something happen. It happen to me just a few hours ago.. The story begin from the date:

15December09 - Dont know what to do. So I decide to live at cousin house at A*****. and my first plan is to hang out with one of my fren. No need to ask. Of coz it is a girl and of coz just two of us. I dont think it is wrong only two of us hang out together as long we both know to takecare of ourselves rite? One reason I like to hang out with her bcoz she trust me. As the proof, she is ok hang out with me although it just two of us. Second reason bcoz we did not hang out together for a long times.

16December09 - I text her to plan what we gonna do. After few sms, we decide to hang out on 17 Dec at T**** S*****. Just do some window shoping, eat and watch movie. Suddenly, the other frens text and ask me to karaoke with them. Dont know what to do but think this side and that side is my fren, it is important to treat both equally. So I manage the time to make sure that I can hang out with both sides.

17December09 - At 7.47am she text me to confirm about our plan. Seem it will be like what we plan. But it is totally wrong. 8.11am once again she text me and said that she has to go back to her hometown at T****** bcoz there have emergency case. So all my plan before this become ruin and I end up hang out with the other frens until nite. Something that I not plan at first. Haha. But it still entertain so thanx to them.

So, it is true, we as a human can only plan what to do, but it still GOD that will decide weither it will work or not. What I plan at first end up with something that I not expected. Quiet funny.. Haha. To her, next time we try to plan something again ok? But remember, we can only plan..

To You

To you (you know who you are) - I just want to say, if anyone text me and I did not reply it, it only bcoz of 3 reason : I dont want to, I have no credit or I already sleeping. But rite now, only one up to five persons that I not reply bcoz I dont want to and almost of you know who is that persons. So dont worry about that.

To you (you know who you are) - Sorry coz not reply your message lately. But seriously at that time I have no credit to reply it. It is not bcoz I dont want to but my credit make me cant do it. so plese understand coz I try my best to understand people that I text but they dont reply it for one day, two days and almost a week.

To you (you know who you are) - You also had done the same thing to me before. At first I also feel something like "geram" but after a while I try to understand it. So please do the same. I have a reason if I dont reply it and it is not bcoz I dont want to.. lastly forgive me if I do wrong. Thats all..

Hate To Waiting,,

Today is 16 December 2009 and rite now I still not sleeping yet. Why? It is easy.. bcoz I notice that 16 December 2009 is a release date for 2 singles album that I'm waiting about 2 months ago. So rite now I start checking the website to make sure it has been released.

So what is relation between my story and title above? Em.. as simple as that, I check the website about every minutes and still not have any news about that singles.. So when they want to release it?? Please do it fast.. really hate to waiting.

Thanx For The Reminder!!

One day, I realize that my nset credit show a value of RM0.00. So bcoz there is no credit left, I decide to keep it. and the next day, I get a sms from a fren. Just a short one. But sorry can't reply it. It is wrote like this

"Woyt. Apa ko wat kt umah hah? Online p0n idek.. Update la umah ko ngan sgale aktvt cti ko. Btw, ak dh open blk....."

Haha, now I realize that is long time I dont typing anything here. Thanx for the reminder. But, it is not bcoz Im too lazy to write anything. The problem is I dont know what must I typing rite now. In other word, I have no idea.. haha

Neway, thanx for remind me with that message. Maybe after this I will try to do something interesting such as run away, jump from the bulding or other things.. haha. Just joking.. I will try my best to update this thing as much as possible.. but for now, thanx for the reminder!!

Second Chance..

"A long time ago in school, there has someone call s enter same school as n.. n just want to be s friend but at the time he is too shy. GOD know and give n chance by put n and s in same group during their visit to Melaka. But n not use that chance so until now he still not be s friend.

Now, with the fb n has meet s again. So this time n really want to be friend with s. want s to be friend that is really2 friend. What its mean is a friend that can chating, ym, sms, hang out, happy n etc.. so here n want s to be n friend, just like the other friends. Just that, thanx.

nomenclature: n= me, s= u, so let be my friend. haha. Salam."

Believe it or not, the malay version of this story, I send as a message to someone that I really want to be friend with, since the 1st time she enter my school.. Haha, but dont misunderstand it, it is not about feeling and not about like or love her. Just.. I like to be friend with her. Just that only, no other reason.

And.. since GOD give me second chance to be friend with her, I think this time I should not let this opportunity go. Coz I dont know weither I will get the third chance after this or not. So after think a while, I decide to grab it by sending the mesage above to her. And as the result, she reply it and my wish to be friend with her is fullfil. Thanx GOD for this second chance..

Bored.. Really Bored!!

Emm.. I still in holiday, but it is really bored.. All that I plan before holiday seem cannot be done. I have to be a personal driver to my sister. What is not good about it is a driver without salary!! Oh GOD, please open my sis heart to make her take a driver licence. So I can be free and can go anywhere I want.

Human is complicated. So do I. Dont know why.. Rite now I enjoy my holiday peacefully but it still not satisfy me. Suddenly I hope that there will come some problems in my life. So I have something that I can think of. What the crazy thinking that I have.. Have a peacefull life but still want to ask for some problems.. Hey me!! wake up!!

But this is the reason why I write this post. Coz im bored!!!!!! really2 bored. Dont know what to do. Dont know what I can do. So what I do? Easy, rite anything that I want here and say that Iam really2 bored!!! really!!!!!