I Think I Stop Here..

Yesterday, online fb and see any status that I can comment.. Wait n wait, at last one of my friend list post the status and didnt wait much time, I write a comment. A moment later, the owner reply back and ask weither I know the owner or not. I just can.. laugh of loudly. Funny coz as far as I know the owner add me first. So follow the rule, Im the one who should ask that question isn't it? But dont want to talk much, so just say that thing is not important..

Today, wake up in the morning and my mum ask to tidy up the room ++ I know that my room can defeat "tongkang pecah" Dont want to get free talk, so agree with it and start tidy up my room. Feel tired so relax for a while and decide to text N coz lately, really comfortable with N + can talk about many things, from real to imaginary one. But, poor me.. N has a work to do so just can text about 3, 4 times and after that it ended with daa.. em.. it ok then..

Hours ago, after settle with Jumaat prayer continue with tidy room session. During that session notice one thing, I has a lot of clothes actually!! Didnt realize it before. Then, start to feel tired so online for a while. Find someone to chat so start searching and at last decide to chat with B. Not really close but it is ok coz it is good time to get close.. B also has no problem with that so at last we spend our time chat n joke. Quite long but really satisfy with it coz it fun..=)

Now, dont know what else to write so I think I stop here..

We'll See About That..

Long time didnt write.. The fact!! No idea what I need to write.. + since Im at home and until now no ordinary thing happen, just a simple and usual one. In short, I just live my life happily and peaceful here.. Text n sms?? Not really coz lately, my nset start 2 "ngade2" with me. Bcoz of that, I just text when I really want to and when it is important for me to do that. Otherwise I just concentrate with my buddies which is PS2, Astro and FB.. ahakz!

So since nothing to share for now just want to talk about movies, refer to the movies I watch in the cinema. Specific it, malay movie. I dont really remember when is last time I watching malay movies but one thing Im sure, last movie is S*** ****. I watch it bcoz I see the trailer is really scared and the quote that this movie use really attract me "9 stories in 1 movie". Sounds cool rite? So coz of 2 reason, I decide to watch this movie.. but

Finish with that movie, dont know what else to say. Speechless!! The reality is different than rumors. Malay words said " indah khabar dari rupa" That is the best way to describe that movie. Really disappointed with that movie. What the hell with 9 stories in 1 movie?? Just add 1 more hour and it can be 15 stories in 1 movie. Add another hour and it can be 20 stories in 1 movie. As simple as that. Why?? Bcoz it just story telling. Just that!!

From that day, I decide myself no more malay movies in cinema, no more. Until now I still keep my decision but, I think maybe bcoz of this new coming movie I will break that. The upcoming movie title L***** B**** S**** inspire from the famous novellist. Know about that novel since Im in form 2 and even I didnt read it coz it has thickness about 6 to 8 cm, but from peoples that already read it said that the story inside that is really touching..

Thriller of that movie already come out few weeks ago. Watching that, I really sure it is a sad love story.. And since Im in "jiwang mode" rite more, maybe I will break what I keep before by watching this. What attract me more is the ost for these film. The title is H******** C****** and sing by F******* V*** I try to find this song from internet but still didnt succeed. Maybe need few days more.. and either watch this movie or not, we'll see about that..

What Can I Say??

"i forgive u but i will never forget.. just remember who i am to u.. u are my sweet memories.."

What can I say? Receive this from someone that I dont really sure about her feeling but what I know this person like me.. From what she said before.. Sometimes I confuse, in the mirror open the glasses and I saw such a crook face... and still have some peoples outside there like me? Is it for real?? Thanx GOD for everything..

What can I say? The words that she send to me.. to say the truth, its really make me feel touching but it just that.. Nothing more than that I can do to pay it back.. + I know that I cant try to like person that like me. I just cant.. If I still do it, I know I will regret it.. and Im sure a lot of peoples outside there also cant do it just like me..

What can I say? I am a person that really like to like someone compare to like someone that like me to. I know about famous words that say " love someone that love you coz if you love someone else, they will leave you to find someone that they really love" But wateva, coz I have 1 famous words that say" love cant be force" isnt it?

What can I say? From words above, I just cant like her back. Even after few years later, it just cant happen. Coz I know, If I do it the thing will getting more worse and at last there is a heart that will be hurt and that is what I want to avoid. How can I know? I experience it once and already take a lesson from it. So what can I say??

Is It Fair??

First it happen to me, then her, and yesterday she.. Really make me want to write this, just as my own opinion..

Is it fair if...

They can talk to their opposite with freedom and cant be control. Hang up in a phone hours and hours. Use such a flirting word and so on but at the time you want to do the same, they didnt give you a permission.. With the simple reason "they didnt like it!"

Is it fair if..

They can be a friend to their opposite. You cant stop them coz they say it is normal to have an opposite friend like that. But at the time you want to the same, they dont want it. And more worse you have to break with current opposite friend that you already have..

Is it fair if..

They can freely check your inbox, your message, your ym and can easily delete the number of the sender that they didnt like you to be friendly with. But at the time you want to do the same, they argue with it and give a reason cant disturb their own personal life..

Is it fair if..

They can go hang out with their opposite anytime they like. Watching movies, singing, lunch, dinner and even travelling together. But at the time you want to do the same, they will become anger and say that you try to play and cheating behind them..

So ?? Is it fair??

Thanx To Both Of You!!

Yesterday, 21May10 is the first time I meet SAJ and SNML. That memorial event happen at O** U****. Thanx GOD coz at last our plan to meet and have a dinner together can be done. We plan these few months ago but cant be full fil since all of us bz with study, exam, assignment and so on.. So at the time I be a jobless person, I really sure it is the suitable time to meet them and they agree with it..

We have a dinner at 6.15 pm if not mistaken .. Really early rite but it is okay since our main plan is eating together. What can I say, even it is the first time I meet both of them, didnt really feel like that. We talk and talk, add on some joking, some personal stories, education part, entertainment, holiday and many more like all of us known each other since we are in kindergarten.

Settle with the dinner session, take a walk but just about 30 minutes bcoz this 2 person didnt really like to walk and go from shop to other shop.. Magnificient 10!! 1st time I meet a friends like that.. ahakz! So at last we end up sitting at the sofa and fill our time with more stories.. They go back early since the rules of their university. But, wateva it is.. it still fun!! What else can I say, thanx to both of you!!

Sure It Will Be Fun!!

Come back to my 2nd house just to finish with T thing. change a soft cover into hard one. So borrowed printer from RK and print the total of 80+- pages. Finish with that, find a suitable printing shop to do the job.. First place about rm30.. crazy or what? So cancel and move to other place and lastly find the suitable place with price only rm18. It takes about 3 days to finish so I need a back up plan to fill these free week, and the plan start with..

17May10 - MKAZ plan to use the money we won from photo contest. He suggest to use that money for the food. Place that he choose is C******* at C*********** .So that nite, me and RK drive to that place. APTZ and AJ come by themselves. Arrive there and we got a shocking news.. No C******* there!! Very funny.. Maybe MKAZ see that place in his dream.. lol!! So at last 5 of us ended up dinner at I*********. Food there is quite expensive and even the bottle of water cost about rm10.00.. Really crazy huh?? We have over budget about rm5.90.. But wateva it is, we really enjoy that food.

18May10 - Very bored, dont know where to go, dont know where to walk. So I decide to hang out alone at M** V****. Then, go back home and the bored come again. Online fb and suddenly saw something.. AP and HZ seem very hungry. So I ask them to join dinner with me. Decision make and all 3 of us agree to have a dinner at O** U****. Finish with that, NF plan to watch movies. At first that plan since to been cancel since HZ has an exam tomorrow, but after HZ say it is okay, we heading to the GSC and find interesting movie to watch. At last, we choose Robin Hood as our entertainment tonite.. Story is very long. about 2 hours duration and I dont know anything about the history inside that. Luckily, there has HZ and she be my personal reference book that nite.. =P.. Finish movie and it already 2 am.. So mall already close and we has a problem finding our car park. Luckily AP already taken a picture and finally we successfully find that purple wheel and go back safely with full of satisfaction.

19May10 - Once again I go to C**********, This time to hang out with SMS, friend that I know during my internship. She already finish with her practical job so 50% time spend with her is full with the sory of her experiences there, but it still interesting to listen. New information, now she live in D******** and not at T****** anymore. Together, we have a lunch at T** S******** since I really wanted to eat there. At last, got it!! Yeah! Finish with that, next plan is watching the movie and the movie we choose is Nightmare on Elm Street since a lot of friends say this film is creepy, scary and so on and that is the good reason to watch isnt it? So before the movie start, we fill that time with some window shoping and guess what? I end up with a new sweater!! lol, pray and after that heading to the cinema and entertain ourself with the movie

Today?? Already has a plan.. with SAJ and SNML.. What we will do? What we will eat? About that, still dont know yet.. But, sure it will be fun!!

It Just A Crush..

Walk away with sibling at A***** P**** , and then go the P****** bcoz my sister want to buy something to her pupils. So I just follow her and try to find something that is interesting to buy. But at last, nothing can attract me there.

Suddenly one group of family come inside that shop and one of that family's member make me faint in 10 seconds. She wear a sweater same color with me, with white "tudung" and a pair of jeans really seem to make my heart beating.

I know a lot of girls there and maybe some of them are more beautiful and pretty compare to her. But what can I say, I think she has something that can attract me look at her. Lastly, nothing happen bcoz.. Cmon friend!! It just a crush..

Why Real World Is Not Like That?

My job as a jobless person is reading novel! can you believe that? Me + novel.. Unbeliveable!! But when life become so bored, for me read something interesting is a good way to cure it. So that is what I do, fill my boring life by reading novel..

The title of novel is... let it be my secret. But the story is interesting, if not Im sure will not read it. What can I say, as you know if it is novel, 90% will story about love.. so I just "layan" it since the story inside this novel is nice and talk a lot about life.

Same like others, about hero and heroin always fight, meet a lot of challanges, and then fall in love and after that major problem come and lastly, all solved and then happily ever after.. Finish reading and 1 question : why real world is not like that?

Still To Face It Rite??

Finish with presentation.. means finish with the study.. hope so.. And it also means from now on I am a full time jobless person!! But, I still dont know what to do next.. Still think and keep thinking which way I should go after this.. What I really want in my life? What is the thing that will make me satisfies? Me myself dont have the answer exactly.. But there have several things or choices that keep run and run in my mind.. Wait for my decision

Continue Study

If few years ago, I really like to do this but now, I dont think so. I already realize that rite now I am to lazy to study.. So, if that so how can I continue my studies rite? What can I say, maybe this option is not valid to me anymore.

Find Job

This option can be considered but how? Honestly, I dont know anything about finding the job. How to make the attractive resume, where to find vacancy, interview things and so on.. No idea about it so how can I got a job?? Need help here.

Relaxing

Seem very fun rite? Just sit at home and do two type of work, eat and sleep. Sound good but the question, can you do it? For me, about a week like that maybe okay but after that, believe me it will make you crazy bcoz live like that is so bored!!

Travelling

Good option to do + a lot of beautiful places in the world. Even our own country has its own culture and uniqueness.. But wait first. Forget something, to do this we need something called money!! So without this, this option can be forget.

So what will I choose? Really dont know but Im sure my family want me to choose no 2 which is finding job. I really didnt like this option but as a human I cant get away from this working era, + it is the only way for me to pay back what my family had done to me since I am a ribena kids until I become what I am now. So hope that sooner or later l will get a suitable job. Am I ready or not? Not sure but wateva it is I still to face it rite??

Lot Of Things To Achieve First..

Start from 9.00 pm to 10.00 pm to 11.00 pm to 12.00 am..

Already 1.00 am and I still cannot sleep. Dont know when it is start but it is a nature for me. Very hard to sleep.. Even I close my eyes about 30 minutes or more, still not succeed to fall asleep. Why it happen like that, me myself dont have the answer.

My frens said it is not good didnt sleep until late nite, coz it is not good for our body and health. Is that true? Maybe it is coz didnt sleep make me feel very tired, and sometime I got a headache and so on. But it is just that, or it will cause anything more??

Before this I think it just normal.. until I read something that make me shock. There has a research that say people that sleep less than 6 hours a day has more chance to die early compare to people that get enough sleep.. What?? It make me speechless..

After read that fact, I think and think.. why it is like that? What is the relation between not enough sleep and die early? Isnt that die thing is a work of GOD ?? GOD decide it rite? So how can it be?? Suddenly I remember a story from my lecturer..

"Story is like this. There has a mom and a son. During a fasting season.. one day, his son is very thirsty. So he ask his mom for a water. His mom didnt want to give it bcoz his son still fasting. Then his son ask for water again. His mom still refuse to give it. He try and try but still not succed. Suddenly his mom notice that his son is not ask for water again. So she go see his son and she saw his son is already sleeping. Seem like that but its not. The truth is, his son already passed away.. End of the story"

So what is the relation between didnt get enough sleep with thirsty but cant drink water? Only one thing come in my mind.. Tired!! So it is means tired will cause to dying? If it is really true, then I must do something to fix my "hard to sleep" habit..

+ compare to die, I still have a lot of things to achieve first..

Life Still Should Go On!!

A week, just let this thing empty without new entry.. sorry but last few weeks bz with the student dying session and exam session. Now, the exam is come to the end (hope so..) and what is left is a presentation that will be held about 3 days from now. And after finish with that (hope everything goes fine..) It is mean that I already settle my job as a student.

Thinking of these sometimes really mess my mind. At one side, I feel very happy bcoz no need to wake up early and go to the faculty, to lecture hall, to tutorial class, to laboratory, to exam hall.. It is means from now on, there is no more lectures, no more tutorial, no more assignment, no more project, no more experiment, no more exam and so on.

The other side of me, feel very sad actually. Why must feel like that? It is bcoz after this, I will go back to my place continue with my own life. Same thing goes to all my frens. All of us will bz with our own matters. So its means maybe it is hard to hang out together after this. No more movie, singing, travel and etc... Im sure I will miss all of that moments.

Besides, I also feel very nervous rite now. Why?? Bcoz if GOD will, after this I will start my life as an employee. Suddenly I think, Can I be a good employee? Im sure it is really hard at first to meet new person, new environment.. One thing for sure, must try to comfortable myself with this new experience.. So lastly, wateva it is, life still should go on!!