What I Want..

To anyone who dont know about it, about few hours ago I just comeback from my hometown. Some friends say it is crazy thing that I do. Go back just to take my calculator that I left at home even only few days I will sit for final exam. Haha maybe it is true but anything that we do always has "HIKMAH" rite? Em.. 1 day at home and I learn it is time for me to think what I really want..

What I want.. forget the past - first thing that come out from my mind is this thing. Yes!! it is true. I want to forget my past. Dont want to think about it anymore.. My past is everything related to me in the past. Problems, ex, enemy.. wateva.. For real, I don't want to think about it. Rite now, what I want to do is to walk on my own path. I will try my best to look forward and never turn back.

What I want.. hardworking - this thing is my best "friend" since I am in standard 1. but after I be a university student, I notice that it has leave me. Maybe it is hard for me to get it back, but I will try and try to find that hardworking. I know I really need it because it help me a lot to make me become me rite now... So anything I will do in order to get it back.

What I want.. love ? - hmm.. it is true I need it? Love from my family, my true friends.. I really need it. But love from someone that we call lover, I dont think I want it rite now. It is enough for me to think about it. I dont care to be hurt but to hurt someone again, I dont want to do it. Maybe when the time come and I meet someone that GOD created for me, I will think about it again but for now nope.

What I want.. successful - of coz I want it!! To be a successful person is my dream since I am small. Really feel jealous with some peoples that really success in their life. Have their own company. Live their life easily. No need to worry about debt and etc etc.. Hope someday I will be like them. So to achieve that, I must work hard isn't it? After that I can also think about Caldina, Veyron and Viper rite? haha.

What I want.. care other people - I cannot avoid from doing this. Sorry to say but it is in my blood since I have heart. My friends also care for me so I want to return the favor. Besides, I know some close friends really need someone to care about them. So I want to be that person as long as I could until they found someone that really care for them more than me. For some that is not comfortable with it, I will stop doing it to them. So dont worry about it.

What I want.. new me - Just a few months to go and I will finish my study.. INSYAALLAH. So now it is suitable time to change myself physically and mentally. First is to increase my weight since many peoples say that I am too thin. Me myself agree with that. Haha. I think I do some exercise but maybe that still not enough. So must work out double after this. Mentally, I want to be more confident person, brave to speak in front of peoples.. So anyone can help?? haha.

Rite now, that is the things that I really want. I have a lots more actually but for now it is enough. Maybe some peoples also think the same things like me. Maybe the others has different thing that they want inside their mind. Bad things or good things, anything can be but hope it is a good things. And for me, I will try and try and try until I got what I want..