Jealousy..

After few years, suddenly the jealousy come.. Haha

" It come today. Today is his birthday. Congratz to him!! GOD give him a chance to add 1 more year to his age. So I wish his besday. Everything looking fine until he go down and come back with the present. Suddenly I feel jealous. A bit of I think. It is not bcoz of the present. But because the person that give him that present. That person... is her. I think I can forget her after few years but today, the present that he get make me remind of her again. I know I should not feel jealous but as a human, I cant lie to myself about that.

I remember few years ago. When both of us still single. At that time we are really close to each other. One day, when my besday nearly come, she ask me what besday present that I want? Stupid me at that time saying to her that its okay, no need to give me anything for my birthday. Haha.. Thinking about it again make me feel like a fool. I know she is really sincere to give me something but I rejected it. Dont you think I am stupid? Haha.. Truth is at that time I just dont want to burden her. Thats why I say that I dont want anything.

But, like I always said, the past will always be the past. I cant always look at the back, but must looking forward. Thing now has change. Now me and her are different. Both of us have our own life. We can only be friend but cant be as close as before. Maybe thats why I feel a bit of jealousy to him. But it is better for me rite now to think positively. I know he is really match with her. And I am sure he can take care of her more than I can do. I really sure about this. Coz I know both of them long time ago and I will pray for their happiness =) "

But, still has a bit of jealousy..